pointless post is pointless: part two 

I wrote a sort of love letter to my life in California once, and I think I need to do that for my life in England as well, just to remind myself how great it is and how lucky I am for the opportunities I’ve had.

Because- and it might just be because it’s past midnight- I’m actually really sad right now.

And I’m sort of lucky in that I can’t remember the last time I was really sad. But I don’t really remember how to cope with being sad.

The thing is, I didn’t realize how much I missed California until I got back. And the first few days were hard, because I was worried I wasn’t connecting with people the way I had before, and maybe I wasn’t, but that all changed pretty quickly.

When it comes down to it, I’ll always love it here because I’ve spent my entire life here.

And while I’m not necessarily starting a new life in England, I’m definitely in the process of starting another one. It’s difficult sometimes to keep those two lives connected, but being back reminded me how important everyone here is to me, so I’m going to try harder this time.